the end...it's just the beginning...

Today I was sitting in Starbucks in Brookfield after my WEAP interview, just thinking. "I have nothing I have to be doing. I am actually reading a book for fun!" It was a great feeling, and I think I finally realized that school is completely over! It was an amazing feeling!!! :)

I realized that I could actually start spending more time with Jake, exercising, and having fun! I can meet new people, and not always worry about what's going to happen. I want to have fun in my relationships, and not think about the next step...putting deadlines on things...having to "define" every little thing!

I am going to start acting my age, looking for jobs that meet my standards of pay and population served, and realize that I have accomplished a lot! It's true that I may be a single mother, working at Starbucks, and essentially single and unmarried...but it feels good to be uncertain for once.

It is true that I still think that I won't find "Mr Right" at a bar, but why do I have to go out and find him...maybe he should be finding me? I am going to think about each guy I meet as someone to have fun with. If they don't meet my standards right away, I am not going to waste my time putting a "label" on the relationship...

Here's an example...I met a great guy a few weeks ago...of course online. He is an amazing guy, and I am having a blast getting to know him. Our first date was amazing and so much fun. I have a few more dates lined up with him next week, and I am stoked to be getting to know him better. He actually does meet all of my basic standards...

• over 6' (he's 6'5")
• dark hair
• no facial hair
• in the same weight range for his height as I am
• college degree
• good paying job
• one child
• likes to go out and have a good time
• great sense of humor
• intellectually stimulating
• attractive

I don't think this is too much to ask, and I'm going to continue "measuring guys up" to my standards because I deserve it. As I have said I am not going to put a label on this relationship quite yet, and I am going to have fun! Isn't that what life should be all about in your 30's? ;)