Okay peeps...it's been awhile since I've done my personal blog, and I am finally going to write one!!! I am back to independently coaching for Beachbody, and I am excited about it! I was a coach probably about eight months ago, but I just didn't have the time to put into the business. I am going to really put an effort into it, and hopefully make a supplemental income because of it. If you want more info you can go to...
http://beachbodycoach.com/eringettingfit
http://eringettingfit30/blogspot.com
More bad news on the job front. I interviewed for a job in IA for the Bureau on Monday. I technically didn't have my credentials until Wednesday, but I told them in the interview, and they continued to interview me. On Friday I had a very upsetting phone call. The head of HR called me to tell me that since I didn't have my credentials on the day of the interview, they couldn't hire me. I was told to reapply with my credential number, and if they didn't fill all of the spots they would interview me again in a few weeks. It is very frustrating, and I'm thinking that I have been given a sign that I am not supposed to work in child welfare. I do have a phone interview on Tuesday to work in Crisis Prevention in Rockford, so we'll see what happens with that...it seems like a perfect job to get "school" type experience.
Everything else is going well. I haven't been working too much at Starbucks, so I have been able to spend a lot of time with Jake this week. I also got to see Julie on Friday, so that was a bonus!!! Anyways, now I'm going to have a relaxing Sunday at home with Jake and Thompson. It is my parents' 40th Wedding Anniversary today, so they are going to be in Milwaukee most of the day. I hope everyone else has a fabulous Sunday as well!!! :)
Sunday, June 27, 2010
Thursday, June 24, 2010
Today's blog is kinda random. There hasn't been much going on lately. It is true that I am only working at Starbucks, but I don't understand how it is nearly impossible to make plans with my friends. I think the reason that it is so difficult is that my schedule at work is completely opposite than everyone else that I know. While I'm at work everyone else is free, and vice-a-versa. It is making it difficult to be in a new relationship because of this.
I have been going on quite a few interviews lately...a handful a week...but nothing yet. I just don't understand why I can't find anything? Hopefully my job situation will change soon, so I can actually enjoy part of my summer.
I have been doing pretty good these past few weeks with my workout schedule. P90X is killing me, but I am already seeing some results after just two weeks. I also ordered Chalene's TurboFire, so I am pretty darn excited to combine P90X and TurboFire into a hybrid workout that I have developed. I will be doing each workout three days a week instead of the six that you are supposed to...it will workout to six workouts a week with one day off. I will keep everyone posted on my progress. Speaking of workouts...it's time to get to it for my morning workout!!! Later peeps... :)
I have been going on quite a few interviews lately...a handful a week...but nothing yet. I just don't understand why I can't find anything? Hopefully my job situation will change soon, so I can actually enjoy part of my summer.
I have been doing pretty good these past few weeks with my workout schedule. P90X is killing me, but I am already seeing some results after just two weeks. I also ordered Chalene's TurboFire, so I am pretty darn excited to combine P90X and TurboFire into a hybrid workout that I have developed. I will be doing each workout three days a week instead of the six that you are supposed to...it will workout to six workouts a week with one day off. I will keep everyone posted on my progress. Speaking of workouts...it's time to get to it for my morning workout!!! Later peeps... :)
Saturday, June 19, 2010
"relationships"...
Let's see...I've been thinking about this blog all day...trying to decide the best way to write it. I'm sure most of you have figured out that I am seeing someone pretty exclusively. This time around I am trying not to put labels on my relationships too fast, and just wait to see where they go. That is exactly what I am doing with this guy, and he is amazing!
We have no label on our relationship...we like to spend time together...we are not rushing into anything. He has taught me that whatever is supposed to happen will happen. Maybe that's why we've been brought together by whatever "force" made that happen. I think that he was brought to me to teach me that "good things come to those who wait." If we had met at another point in our lives, our relationship might not be working out as well as it is.
This relationship has also taught me that I should honestly wait for the right job to come to me too. I have been interviewing for a lot of jobs that don't meet my standards financially or are part-time. I need to look more carefully at the jobs that I'm applying for an interviewing for so I don't alter my standards when it comes to a job. I didn't alter my standards when finding someone to date, so I am going to do the same in my professional life. I am sensing good things a brewing, so I am just going to be patient and let them come to me.
Well, it is now getting pretty late, so it's time for bed!!!
We have no label on our relationship...we like to spend time together...we are not rushing into anything. He has taught me that whatever is supposed to happen will happen. Maybe that's why we've been brought together by whatever "force" made that happen. I think that he was brought to me to teach me that "good things come to those who wait." If we had met at another point in our lives, our relationship might not be working out as well as it is.
This relationship has also taught me that I should honestly wait for the right job to come to me too. I have been interviewing for a lot of jobs that don't meet my standards financially or are part-time. I need to look more carefully at the jobs that I'm applying for an interviewing for so I don't alter my standards when it comes to a job. I didn't alter my standards when finding someone to date, so I am going to do the same in my professional life. I am sensing good things a brewing, so I am just going to be patient and let them come to me.
Well, it is now getting pretty late, so it's time for bed!!!
Thursday, June 17, 2010
adult children and their parents
I've been recently thinking about the relationships that adult children have with their parents. I was thinking about the comparison of adult children that have moved out 10-15 years ago, and children that have been moved out for many years that have to move back due to extenuating circumstances.
Myself for example moved back in with my parents after being on my own for eight years. The reason I had to move back is because I was pregnant, left my son's dad, and needed somewhere to stay. I have stayed with my parents for the past four years because I was finishing school, and haven't yet found a job that can help me afford the basics of life.
I have also thought about how honest adult children are with their parents. I know that I am fairly honest with my parents, but I do tend to "omit" certain things from my conversations with my parents. My mother especially, is very interested in the things that I do with my free time...be it my relationships, school, or friends. I tend to omit things that I don't really think they need to know. I don't consider this lying, but do they really need to know everything that I am doing?
Our parents tend to put unneeded pressure on us, and have very high expectations. I know that my parents are very proud of the things that I have accomplished, but I know that they want me to find someone to settle down with. Also, my dad has been putting additional pressure on my to start my PhD already. I just don't know what I could do to make them 100% happy with what I am doing. It is frustrating, but I know that it's just because they care about me.
I may have to consider moving out when I have enough money to pay rent, not when I have enough money to buy a house. I just honestly think that the best thing that I can do for our relationship is to move out, and act like I'm actually 30-years-old. Separating from my parents by moving out seems to be the answer!!!
Myself for example moved back in with my parents after being on my own for eight years. The reason I had to move back is because I was pregnant, left my son's dad, and needed somewhere to stay. I have stayed with my parents for the past four years because I was finishing school, and haven't yet found a job that can help me afford the basics of life.
I have also thought about how honest adult children are with their parents. I know that I am fairly honest with my parents, but I do tend to "omit" certain things from my conversations with my parents. My mother especially, is very interested in the things that I do with my free time...be it my relationships, school, or friends. I tend to omit things that I don't really think they need to know. I don't consider this lying, but do they really need to know everything that I am doing?
Our parents tend to put unneeded pressure on us, and have very high expectations. I know that my parents are very proud of the things that I have accomplished, but I know that they want me to find someone to settle down with. Also, my dad has been putting additional pressure on my to start my PhD already. I just don't know what I could do to make them 100% happy with what I am doing. It is frustrating, but I know that it's just because they care about me.
I may have to consider moving out when I have enough money to pay rent, not when I have enough money to buy a house. I just honestly think that the best thing that I can do for our relationship is to move out, and act like I'm actually 30-years-old. Separating from my parents by moving out seems to be the answer!!!
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
time...why is it important?
Let's see...it's my second day off from work in a row...one more to go! I have been doing a lot of relaxing, reflecting, and finishing everything on my "list" each day. I have also been doing a lot of mental reflecting, and feeling pretty good about myself. I have been actually taking time for me, which is a great feeling!
Right now I'm eating breakfast with Jake...thinking about what I want to blog about today. As I think to myself about what is significant to me today...I automatically think about time. When you are reconnecting with an old friend, or seeing someone that you haven't seen in awhile...they always ask you questions regarding time.
Examples:
People are always asking what my plans are after grad school...when are you going to get a job...where are you going to work...when are you going to quit Starbucks? I really don't know the answer to any of those questions, and I'm okay with that. I am really trying to get a new job, but I am stressing over it...depressing myself.
I'm just going to continue living my life for me, having fun for as long as I possibly can, and working on myself...because that's really what it should be all about! :)
Right now I'm eating breakfast with Jake...thinking about what I want to blog about today. As I think to myself about what is significant to me today...I automatically think about time. When you are reconnecting with an old friend, or seeing someone that you haven't seen in awhile...they always ask you questions regarding time.
Examples:
- How old is your kid?
- How much longer to you have in school?
- How long have you been dating/married?
- How long have you been working there?
- What have been doing in the past few years?
- How much money do you make?
- How many kids do you want to have?
- How old are you?
People are always asking what my plans are after grad school...when are you going to get a job...where are you going to work...when are you going to quit Starbucks? I really don't know the answer to any of those questions, and I'm okay with that. I am really trying to get a new job, but I am stressing over it...depressing myself.
I'm just going to continue living my life for me, having fun for as long as I possibly can, and working on myself...because that's really what it should be all about! :)
Friday, June 11, 2010
the end...it's just the beginning...
Today I was sitting in Starbucks in Brookfield after my WEAP interview, just thinking. "I have nothing I have to be doing. I am actually reading a book for fun!" It was a great feeling, and I think I finally realized that school is completely over! It was an amazing feeling!!! :)
I realized that I could actually start spending more time with Jake, exercising, and having fun! I can meet new people, and not always worry about what's going to happen. I want to have fun in my relationships, and not think about the next step...putting deadlines on things...having to "define" every little thing!
I am going to start acting my age, looking for jobs that meet my standards of pay and population served, and realize that I have accomplished a lot! It's true that I may be a single mother, working at Starbucks, and essentially single and unmarried...but it feels good to be uncertain for once.
It is true that I still think that I won't find "Mr Right" at a bar, but why do I have to go out and find him...maybe he should be finding me? I am going to think about each guy I meet as someone to have fun with. If they don't meet my standards right away, I am not going to waste my time putting a "label" on the relationship...
Here's an example...I met a great guy a few weeks ago...of course online. He is an amazing guy, and I am having a blast getting to know him. Our first date was amazing and so much fun. I have a few more dates lined up with him next week, and I am stoked to be getting to know him better. He actually does meet all of my basic standards...
I realized that I could actually start spending more time with Jake, exercising, and having fun! I can meet new people, and not always worry about what's going to happen. I want to have fun in my relationships, and not think about the next step...putting deadlines on things...having to "define" every little thing!
I am going to start acting my age, looking for jobs that meet my standards of pay and population served, and realize that I have accomplished a lot! It's true that I may be a single mother, working at Starbucks, and essentially single and unmarried...but it feels good to be uncertain for once.
It is true that I still think that I won't find "Mr Right" at a bar, but why do I have to go out and find him...maybe he should be finding me? I am going to think about each guy I meet as someone to have fun with. If they don't meet my standards right away, I am not going to waste my time putting a "label" on the relationship...
Here's an example...I met a great guy a few weeks ago...of course online. He is an amazing guy, and I am having a blast getting to know him. Our first date was amazing and so much fun. I have a few more dates lined up with him next week, and I am stoked to be getting to know him better. He actually does meet all of my basic standards...
- over 6' (he's 6'5")
- dark hair
- no facial hair
- in the same weight range for his height as I am
- college degree
- good paying job
- one child
- likes to go out and have a good time
- great sense of humor
- intellectually stimulating
- attractive
Tuesday, June 8, 2010
the last few days...
Well, this is my last week at my internship, and at 1pm on Thursday it will be all over! I am excited to get started with my social work career, but sad to leave the place I've been working for the past nine months. I've also realized through my recent job search that it's really tough out there! The economy is bad, so it's really hard to find a job.
As I think about my recent struggles in this area, I think constantly about what I do have. I do have a job at Starbucks. Next week I start working exclusively at Starbucks, and I'm feeling pretty good about it. I'm going to be working about 30-hours-per-week with three days off. This gives me a lot of free time to apply for jobs and go on interviews, exercise, work with my horses, spend time with Jake, and spend time with my friends. Sometimes I think that God wants me to spend some time on myself before I start working full-time.
In the past week I've had more fun than I have had in a very long time. I have been spending lots of time with Jake, seeing my friends, and meeting new people. Last Saturday was my last day of graduate school, and after class I had a "free day!" I went out to lunch with my classmates, chilled at Barnes & Noble, hung out at Courtney's apartment, and then went out for dinner and drinks with a new friend. I had so much fun that I forgot I was in my 30's with a 3-year-old at home. I didn't forget these things in a negative way...it was all positive!
Hmmm...maybe I should explain that last statement a little bit better! For the past four years I have felt the true stress of being a single parent. When I moved back in with my parents on June 21st 2006, I was five-months pregnant and feeling all alone. I had no friends, no job, no degree, and was moving back in with my parents at the age of 26. For the first month that it took me to get a job, I did a lot of thinking...
I thought about impending motherhood, my present life situation, and my future. I knew that I could not support myself and my son without a college degree. During the months up to my son's birth I thought about what I wanted to do with my life. I thought about my strengths and my past. I thought about the degrees that UW-Whitewater offered...I thought about Social Work. It was decided shortly after that...Social Work was going to be my ideal career.
January 2007, two months after Jake was born, it all started! I was now a single mother, full-time college student, and working part-time. It was hard, and got even harder when I started interning...working for free!!! Now that it is all finally coming to a close, I have some anxiety...I'm not going to lie. I do worry what it's going to be like when I'm completely done with this degree at the end of the week. I've been a student for so long that I don't know what it's like to not be a student. Only time will tell...
As I think about my recent struggles in this area, I think constantly about what I do have. I do have a job at Starbucks. Next week I start working exclusively at Starbucks, and I'm feeling pretty good about it. I'm going to be working about 30-hours-per-week with three days off. This gives me a lot of free time to apply for jobs and go on interviews, exercise, work with my horses, spend time with Jake, and spend time with my friends. Sometimes I think that God wants me to spend some time on myself before I start working full-time.
In the past week I've had more fun than I have had in a very long time. I have been spending lots of time with Jake, seeing my friends, and meeting new people. Last Saturday was my last day of graduate school, and after class I had a "free day!" I went out to lunch with my classmates, chilled at Barnes & Noble, hung out at Courtney's apartment, and then went out for dinner and drinks with a new friend. I had so much fun that I forgot I was in my 30's with a 3-year-old at home. I didn't forget these things in a negative way...it was all positive!
Hmmm...maybe I should explain that last statement a little bit better! For the past four years I have felt the true stress of being a single parent. When I moved back in with my parents on June 21st 2006, I was five-months pregnant and feeling all alone. I had no friends, no job, no degree, and was moving back in with my parents at the age of 26. For the first month that it took me to get a job, I did a lot of thinking...
I thought about impending motherhood, my present life situation, and my future. I knew that I could not support myself and my son without a college degree. During the months up to my son's birth I thought about what I wanted to do with my life. I thought about my strengths and my past. I thought about the degrees that UW-Whitewater offered...I thought about Social Work. It was decided shortly after that...Social Work was going to be my ideal career.
January 2007, two months after Jake was born, it all started! I was now a single mother, full-time college student, and working part-time. It was hard, and got even harder when I started interning...working for free!!! Now that it is all finally coming to a close, I have some anxiety...I'm not going to lie. I do worry what it's going to be like when I'm completely done with this degree at the end of the week. I've been a student for so long that I don't know what it's like to not be a student. Only time will tell...
Thursday, June 3, 2010
a new outlook...
Well, it's been awhile since I've blogged...with good reasons. Since I have been trying to stay positive in my blogs I didn't want to write anything until my bad week had passed. It was a horribly bad week, with bad things coming in three's. Now that that week behind me, I am starting off fresh with a new outlook on life...
(1) The APSW Certification Exam:
Sure, I failed...but I only missed passing it by two questions! With a little more studying and a clear head, I can pass it in August right around graduation. I can't technically get my license until I graduate anyways, so no problem.
(2) The IFS Job:
Sure, I didn't get the job...but that must mean that there is a different job out there that I am better suited for! Another positive is that I do currently have a job with insurance, when there are a lot of people finishing school that don't have any job at all. I just need to keep looking for that perfect job that is out there waiting for me.
(3) Being dumped (aka "taking a break")
Sure, I was dumped...but I'm honestly okay with it. He ended up not being the guy I thought he was, especially since he said in his blog that "something was missing" in our relationship. Sure, I would have appreciated a call, text, or email letting me know this problem, but he was probably right. Another indication that he was not the guy for me, and that he's still out there somewhere. I will continue looking until I find him, and I will not lower my standards in any way!
Considering the week I have just had I honestly feel great! I have one more day of classes left, two and a half more days at my internship, the next two days off to be with family and friends, have started to meet new people again, can start breaking out my horses, and am going to start exercising five days a week. I have a loving family, a good education, a place to live, and great friends. I couldn't ask for anything more...which is wy I am still happy and positive!!! :)
(1) The APSW Certification Exam:
Sure, I failed...but I only missed passing it by two questions! With a little more studying and a clear head, I can pass it in August right around graduation. I can't technically get my license until I graduate anyways, so no problem.
(2) The IFS Job:
Sure, I didn't get the job...but that must mean that there is a different job out there that I am better suited for! Another positive is that I do currently have a job with insurance, when there are a lot of people finishing school that don't have any job at all. I just need to keep looking for that perfect job that is out there waiting for me.
(3) Being dumped (aka "taking a break")
Sure, I was dumped...but I'm honestly okay with it. He ended up not being the guy I thought he was, especially since he said in his blog that "something was missing" in our relationship. Sure, I would have appreciated a call, text, or email letting me know this problem, but he was probably right. Another indication that he was not the guy for me, and that he's still out there somewhere. I will continue looking until I find him, and I will not lower my standards in any way!
Considering the week I have just had I honestly feel great! I have one more day of classes left, two and a half more days at my internship, the next two days off to be with family and friends, have started to meet new people again, can start breaking out my horses, and am going to start exercising five days a week. I have a loving family, a good education, a place to live, and great friends. I couldn't ask for anything more...which is wy I am still happy and positive!!! :)
Friday, May 28, 2010
Friday morning blues...
Ok peeps...it is Friday of Memorial Day weekend...and I'm pretty low.
It's been a pretty emotional week, and nothing seems to be going right at this point. I just don't understand how everything can be going so great, and then everything comes to a screeching halt.
I do only have one week left of grad school, and two weeks left at my internship...but then what? I did go on a second interview at IFS yesterday, and I should know today if I got the job. Hopefully I will have a good phone call that helps me get through this weekend. If it is a bad phone call...I don't know what I will do...drink myself into a stupor tonight...I really don't know! lol
I don't often say, "I don't know" because I usually do know. This morning I just don't know. I have been in a rut in every possible part of my life, and have no clue how to get myself out of it. Nothing seems to be going right, but I am going to still try to put a smile on my face and get through each and every day. If I don't do that...what else could I possibly do?
It's been a pretty emotional week, and nothing seems to be going right at this point. I just don't understand how everything can be going so great, and then everything comes to a screeching halt.
I do only have one week left of grad school, and two weeks left at my internship...but then what? I did go on a second interview at IFS yesterday, and I should know today if I got the job. Hopefully I will have a good phone call that helps me get through this weekend. If it is a bad phone call...I don't know what I will do...drink myself into a stupor tonight...I really don't know! lol
I don't often say, "I don't know" because I usually do know. This morning I just don't know. I have been in a rut in every possible part of my life, and have no clue how to get myself out of it. Nothing seems to be going right, but I am going to still try to put a smile on my face and get through each and every day. If I don't do that...what else could I possibly do?
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
philosophy at its finest...
Been thinking very philosophical today. Why, even as adults, do people talk about each other behind their backs? I think adults might even gossip and spread rumors more often than kids do. Sometimes people may have personal things going on in their lives that they want to keep private. It is very hurtful when these things are twisted around, and then spread to everyone.
While I'm working with kids, especially adolescent girls, I try to teach them that people will always gossip and spread rumors, especially girls. I try to teach them to let these things "roll off" because they know it's not true. It's easy to tell other people this, but not when you are having a hard time doing it yourself.
As I get older, I have tried not to let gossip and jealousy of others get to me. I always say that I don't care what other people think about me, but I've realized in the past few weeks that I really do care. It hurts a lot, especially when people make assumptions when they don't know the whole story.
I'm really trying to let this "roll off," like I tell my kids to do. I am going to continue keeping my personal life private, and really evaluate who I can honestly trust. I'm also going to be more choosy with whom I conversate with on public social sites, email, and text message. I've gotta watch my own back, and reevaluate who I confide in...so very, very sad that it's come to this! :(
While I'm working with kids, especially adolescent girls, I try to teach them that people will always gossip and spread rumors, especially girls. I try to teach them to let these things "roll off" because they know it's not true. It's easy to tell other people this, but not when you are having a hard time doing it yourself.
As I get older, I have tried not to let gossip and jealousy of others get to me. I always say that I don't care what other people think about me, but I've realized in the past few weeks that I really do care. It hurts a lot, especially when people make assumptions when they don't know the whole story.
I'm really trying to let this "roll off," like I tell my kids to do. I am going to continue keeping my personal life private, and really evaluate who I can honestly trust. I'm also going to be more choosy with whom I conversate with on public social sites, email, and text message. I've gotta watch my own back, and reevaluate who I confide in...so very, very sad that it's come to this! :(
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
Tuesday...cramming for my APSW Exam
Hello my peeps...
I am chilling in the Racine Starbucks...studying for my APSW certification exam...that I take tomorrow at 10am! I am feeling pretty prepared right now...a little help from Courtney, and BAM...76% baby!!! I am feeling much better about the exam...gonna use my Heart Health breathing again...confident!
It was a good day at my internship today. I did find out that DPI requires that I stay there until June 10th, but that's cool...more time with my kids!!! Yay!!!
I also started working more closely today with the Temporary School Social Worker, and she is awesome! She has taught me so much about School Social Work in just four short hours...little things...things that I love!!! I'm going to be involved in actual counseling in the next three weeks...exciting stuff for me!
I am realizing with each day that the end of grad school is really almost here. I have a busy June shaping up, and it feels great! More time with Jake, Jason, and my friends. I might actually have time to break out my two horses this summer too...good stuff!
Things have been going so good in my personal life, and I am excited to explore those good things more this summer. Jason has been so understanding, and true support system for me to get through all of this. I'm just hoping that once we actually get to spend most weekends together, we will grow even more as a couple...and a family as our kids get to spend more time together. It is such a good feeling to have a healthy and loving relationship...no strings attached!
Now I think I am just rambling, so I am gonna sign out...
APSW certification exam Wednesday
2nd interview for IFS on Thursday
GREAT things are coming...I can just feel it!!! :)
I am chilling in the Racine Starbucks...studying for my APSW certification exam...that I take tomorrow at 10am! I am feeling pretty prepared right now...a little help from Courtney, and BAM...76% baby!!! I am feeling much better about the exam...gonna use my Heart Health breathing again...confident!
It was a good day at my internship today. I did find out that DPI requires that I stay there until June 10th, but that's cool...more time with my kids!!! Yay!!!
I also started working more closely today with the Temporary School Social Worker, and she is awesome! She has taught me so much about School Social Work in just four short hours...little things...things that I love!!! I'm going to be involved in actual counseling in the next three weeks...exciting stuff for me!
I am realizing with each day that the end of grad school is really almost here. I have a busy June shaping up, and it feels great! More time with Jake, Jason, and my friends. I might actually have time to break out my two horses this summer too...good stuff!
Things have been going so good in my personal life, and I am excited to explore those good things more this summer. Jason has been so understanding, and true support system for me to get through all of this. I'm just hoping that once we actually get to spend most weekends together, we will grow even more as a couple...and a family as our kids get to spend more time together. It is such a good feeling to have a healthy and loving relationship...no strings attached!
Now I think I am just rambling, so I am gonna sign out...
APSW certification exam Wednesday
2nd interview for IFS on Thursday
GREAT things are coming...I can just feel it!!! :)
Monday, May 24, 2010
Monday...a little unexpected...
Well, I'm always talking about closure and how important it is to me. Today I was thrown for a loop. It is my last day at my internship...TODAY! It is a weird feeling that I wasn't really prepared for. My supervisor is going on leave, and today she said, "You're already over on your hours. Let's have today be your last day." Shocking, I have feelings of relief, not sadness.
I am going to be sad to leave my kids, but not to be done with my internship. It just means I'm one step closer to my graduate school career being over. One more Monday night class tonight, two Tuesday classes, and one Saturday class..one more paper to write too!!!
A few questions in my mind...What will transpire in the next two weeks? Will I get any interviews? Will I get any rejections? Will I get any job offers? I honestly don't know!
This "not knowing" usually bugs the crap out of me, but today I am calm and serene...go figure! I'm totally not stressing the unknown. I realize that I'm not very religious, but I do consider myself a spiritual person. The past few weeks I have been doing a lot of praying.
It may sound cheesy, but I really do think that "God has a plan" for me. I don't know if I am "meant" to get this IFS job, but if I don't get it, I'm sure there's something better out there for me. I am trying to remember that "everything happens for a reason."
I am going to stay positive, look ahead, and never look back. I will succeed, even if it takes awhile...
I am going to be sad to leave my kids, but not to be done with my internship. It just means I'm one step closer to my graduate school career being over. One more Monday night class tonight, two Tuesday classes, and one Saturday class..one more paper to write too!!!
A few questions in my mind...What will transpire in the next two weeks? Will I get any interviews? Will I get any rejections? Will I get any job offers? I honestly don't know!
This "not knowing" usually bugs the crap out of me, but today I am calm and serene...go figure! I'm totally not stressing the unknown. I realize that I'm not very religious, but I do consider myself a spiritual person. The past few weeks I have been doing a lot of praying.
It may sound cheesy, but I really do think that "God has a plan" for me. I don't know if I am "meant" to get this IFS job, but if I don't get it, I'm sure there's something better out there for me. I am trying to remember that "everything happens for a reason."
I am going to stay positive, look ahead, and never look back. I will succeed, even if it takes awhile...
Sunday, May 23, 2010
lazy Sundays...doesn't happen very often!
Sunday morning...the morning after the Daughtry show in Rockford. The show was awesome, and Jason and I had a complete blast!!! The seats were awesome...thanks Mom and Dad (30th birthday present)!!!
I must say that things have changed a little bit for me in the terms of concerts in the past ten years or so. We had really awesome seats...at the end of the catwalk! There were four high school age girls sitting next to Jason, and they were so annoying!!! They kept trying to stand in front of our seats, and they were screaming so loudly!!! I let it slide for Lifehouse, but there was no way they were going to stand there for Daughtry. I was a huge bitch to them...saying horrible things to them. They were annoying little girls, and I honestly wanted to the beat the sh** out of them! When Daughtry started playing Jason and I jumped up to the railing before they had a chance. They were super pissed because Jason is 6'3", and I was wearing a 3 inch heal. They said to Jason, "I'm just going to scream in your ear the whole time." We just laughed because it was so funny.
The show was awesome...minus the stupid screaming children. I touched Daughtry's hand twice, and got some awesome pics...which I'm downloading on Facebook as we speak. Daughtry probably played for about two hours...I forgot how many awesome songs he really does have. I will say though, drinking at the show was nearly impossible. It was $6 for one beer...Bud Light...outrageous!!! I haven't had such a good time in a concert in so long, and it was nice to have a relaxing evening with good music and exceptional company.
I am currently enjoying my Sunday off of work by watching Scooby Doo with Jake...trying to decide if we're going to see the new Shrek movie or not. It's a nice day outside...but getting pretty darn humid!!! Time to keep being bum...downloading pictures...spending quality time with Jake!
I must say that things have changed a little bit for me in the terms of concerts in the past ten years or so. We had really awesome seats...at the end of the catwalk! There were four high school age girls sitting next to Jason, and they were so annoying!!! They kept trying to stand in front of our seats, and they were screaming so loudly!!! I let it slide for Lifehouse, but there was no way they were going to stand there for Daughtry. I was a huge bitch to them...saying horrible things to them. They were annoying little girls, and I honestly wanted to the beat the sh** out of them! When Daughtry started playing Jason and I jumped up to the railing before they had a chance. They were super pissed because Jason is 6'3", and I was wearing a 3 inch heal. They said to Jason, "I'm just going to scream in your ear the whole time." We just laughed because it was so funny.
The show was awesome...minus the stupid screaming children. I touched Daughtry's hand twice, and got some awesome pics...which I'm downloading on Facebook as we speak. Daughtry probably played for about two hours...I forgot how many awesome songs he really does have. I will say though, drinking at the show was nearly impossible. It was $6 for one beer...Bud Light...outrageous!!! I haven't had such a good time in a concert in so long, and it was nice to have a relaxing evening with good music and exceptional company.
I am currently enjoying my Sunday off of work by watching Scooby Doo with Jake...trying to decide if we're going to see the new Shrek movie or not. It's a nice day outside...but getting pretty darn humid!!! Time to keep being bum...downloading pictures...spending quality time with Jake!
Saturday, May 22, 2010
Sometimes...
Sometimes I wish I was a musician...then I could write a song to express how I am feeling. I know that I blog and keep a personal journal, but sometimes I feel like a song would just help me express myself in a more honest way. I have been doing a lot of thinking lately about my personal relationships, professional relationships, and my future. The future does scare me a little bit, but it's mostly the unknown that scares me. I have been doing a lot of thinking about how I perceive people...and it makes me think sometimes that I don't know people as well as I thought I did.
Sometimes you listen to what someone is saying, but you don't really hear what they are trying to tell you.
Sometimes you think you understand how someone is feeling, but you really have no clue.
Sometimes you are so wrapped up in your own shit, that you don't really hear the advice people are trying to give you.
Sometimes you think you know someone so well, but you really don't know one thing about them.
I think a lot of the time we "suffocate" people with our good intentions...not realizing that we are doing more harm than good. I think this is how romantic relationships get into trouble. We like spending so much time with that person, and then end up feeling like a burden. I don't know how to explain it...so I'm going to use someone else's lyrics to explain that feeling...
You never said, you never said, you never said
That it would be this hard
Love is meant to be forever, now or never seems to discard
There's gotta be a better way for me to say
What's on my heart without leaving scars?
Can you hear me when I call your name?
And when you fall apart
Am I the reason for your endless sorrow?
There's so much to be said and with a broken heart
You walls can only go down but so low
Can you hear me when I call your name?
Complicated situations are the makings of all that's wrong
And I've been standing in the river of deliverance way too long
There's gotta be a better way for me to say
What's on my heart without leaving scars?
Can you hear me when I call your name?
So, can you hear me when I call your name?
And when you fall apart
Am I the reason for your endless sorrow?
There's so much to be said and with a broken heart
You walls can only go down but so low
Can you hear me when I call your name?
Sometimes you listen to what someone is saying, but you don't really hear what they are trying to tell you.
Sometimes you think you understand how someone is feeling, but you really have no clue.
Sometimes you are so wrapped up in your own shit, that you don't really hear the advice people are trying to give you.
Sometimes you think you know someone so well, but you really don't know one thing about them.
I think a lot of the time we "suffocate" people with our good intentions...not realizing that we are doing more harm than good. I think this is how romantic relationships get into trouble. We like spending so much time with that person, and then end up feeling like a burden. I don't know how to explain it...so I'm going to use someone else's lyrics to explain that feeling...
You never said, you never said, you never said
That it would be this hard
Love is meant to be forever, now or never seems to discard
There's gotta be a better way for me to say
What's on my heart without leaving scars?
Can you hear me when I call your name?
And when you fall apart
Am I the reason for your endless sorrow?
There's so much to be said and with a broken heart
You walls can only go down but so low
Can you hear me when I call your name?
Complicated situations are the makings of all that's wrong
And I've been standing in the river of deliverance way too long
There's gotta be a better way for me to say
What's on my heart without leaving scars?
Can you hear me when I call your name?
So, can you hear me when I call your name?
And when you fall apart
Am I the reason for your endless sorrow?
There's so much to be said and with a broken heart
You walls can only go down but so low
Can you hear me when I call your name?
Friday, May 21, 2010
Okay everyone...it is Friday afternoon at 3:28pm...let's write this one down because I only have one paper left to write and two weeks to do it in!!! I have broken my cycle of procrastination with my last semester of graduate school! I feel like a huge burden has been lifted off my shoulders...and I can do ANYTHING!!!
I am thinking about what I am going to do this weekend, and I think it's gonna be...play, play, play, play, play!!! True...I do have class tomorrow morning, but tonight I am going to chill with Jake, tomorrow I am going to party it up with Jason at the Daughtry concert, and Sunday I am going to plan a whole lot of nothing.
I am going to intermix all my wonderful plans with praying...I will be praying that I get "that call" next week with a job offer from IFS! If I could have my post-internship job all set up next week that will take a whole lot of pressure off of me for a few weeks. I just know that I can do this job so well...plus I am a weirdo because I love working in Child Protection...do what you love!
Anyways...time to start my chillaxing for the night...until tomorrow... ;)
I am thinking about what I am going to do this weekend, and I think it's gonna be...play, play, play, play, play!!! True...I do have class tomorrow morning, but tonight I am going to chill with Jake, tomorrow I am going to party it up with Jason at the Daughtry concert, and Sunday I am going to plan a whole lot of nothing.
I am going to intermix all my wonderful plans with praying...I will be praying that I get "that call" next week with a job offer from IFS! If I could have my post-internship job all set up next week that will take a whole lot of pressure off of me for a few weeks. I just know that I can do this job so well...plus I am a weirdo because I love working in Child Protection...do what you love!
Anyways...time to start my chillaxing for the night...until tomorrow... ;)
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
Well peeps...another installment of my blog coming atcha!!!
I had an interview at Bureau of Milwaukee Child Welfare - IFS this afternoon. I think it went really well. I wasn't nervous at all, and I really think I showed Tim who I really was and why I would be a good ongoing case manager. I had him laughing a few times, and I'm hoping next week...when I get that call...it's a job offer! If everyone could send good thoughts and prayers my way I would be greatly appreciative.
I'm down to four and a half days at my internship and five days of class left. June 5th is so close, and it used to feel so far away. I will be so happy to not have to do five million things in one day, and I can actually concentrate on enjoying life...what a concept!
A lot of things going on this summer...
Daughtry on May 22nd
Idol Live on July 2nd
Graduation on August 29th
I am so excited for what the next few weeks will bring. Let's all just think about the good things going on in our lives right now, and be grateful for all the love and support we do have. I know that I am grateful to my parents, Jason, my friends, and my supervisor. Everyone is making me feel so loved...and I know that I am accomplishing great things!
Thanks everyone...you know who you are!!! <3
I had an interview at Bureau of Milwaukee Child Welfare - IFS this afternoon. I think it went really well. I wasn't nervous at all, and I really think I showed Tim who I really was and why I would be a good ongoing case manager. I had him laughing a few times, and I'm hoping next week...when I get that call...it's a job offer! If everyone could send good thoughts and prayers my way I would be greatly appreciative.
I'm down to four and a half days at my internship and five days of class left. June 5th is so close, and it used to feel so far away. I will be so happy to not have to do five million things in one day, and I can actually concentrate on enjoying life...what a concept!
A lot of things going on this summer...
Daughtry on May 22nd
Idol Live on July 2nd
Graduation on August 29th
I am so excited for what the next few weeks will bring. Let's all just think about the good things going on in our lives right now, and be grateful for all the love and support we do have. I know that I am grateful to my parents, Jason, my friends, and my supervisor. Everyone is making me feel so loved...and I know that I am accomplishing great things!
Thanks everyone...you know who you are!!! <3
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
new beginnings...
Hey peeps...Yes...I'm starting ANOTHER blog!!! I am literally two and a half weeks from finishing my MSW coursework and my internship. I think with a new beginning starting very soon...it's time for a new blog!
I am finished with my internship at 21st Century Preparatory School on June 2nd, and I have my last Advanced Groups class at Carthage on June 5th. After June 5th...hmm...it's still up in the air.
I am finally starting to get interviews for what I really want to do in social work...well, one interview at least. This week I am interviewing at Integrated Family Services (IFS), which is Region 3 of Bureau of Milwaukee Child Welfare. This interview is to work as an ongoing case manager with children that have been abused and neglected. I have worked in CPS before...in Walworth County, and I LOVED it! I am aware of a new training for the Bureau starting in June, so this is it...my possibility of getting paid to do social work, having weekends off, using my degree, and quiting Starbucks (bittersweet)!
Jake has also been doing great this year. He is doing very well in school, and loves art and listening to stories. He is a awesome little boy...couldn't ask for better! It will also be nice to have my weekends free to spend more time with Jake because I know we don't get enough "Mommy and son" time. I know that when he is older he will understand why I had to get my MSW done...now I can provide for us so much better!!!
Things in my personal life are right on track as well. Jason and I have now been together for three months, and it couldn't be any better. It feels like we've been together so much longer than that, and he is making me so happy. I still don't get to see him as much as I would like with school and all my other stuff, but that will change very soon! His family and his kids are great too, and I miss them terribly. I can see good things to come from this relationship, and it actually gives me hope in the male species...lol!
I know I can make it through these next few weeks, and I see only good things in the future. Being able to actually spend time with my family, friends, and boyfriend will be the best part. Not living in poverty is just an added bonus. I know that Social Workers don't make much money...but ANYTHING is better than the $10,000/year I make now!
BRING IT ON!!!
I am finished with my internship at 21st Century Preparatory School on June 2nd, and I have my last Advanced Groups class at Carthage on June 5th. After June 5th...hmm...it's still up in the air.
I am finally starting to get interviews for what I really want to do in social work...well, one interview at least. This week I am interviewing at Integrated Family Services (IFS), which is Region 3 of Bureau of Milwaukee Child Welfare. This interview is to work as an ongoing case manager with children that have been abused and neglected. I have worked in CPS before...in Walworth County, and I LOVED it! I am aware of a new training for the Bureau starting in June, so this is it...my possibility of getting paid to do social work, having weekends off, using my degree, and quiting Starbucks (bittersweet)!
Jake has also been doing great this year. He is doing very well in school, and loves art and listening to stories. He is a awesome little boy...couldn't ask for better! It will also be nice to have my weekends free to spend more time with Jake because I know we don't get enough "Mommy and son" time. I know that when he is older he will understand why I had to get my MSW done...now I can provide for us so much better!!!
Things in my personal life are right on track as well. Jason and I have now been together for three months, and it couldn't be any better. It feels like we've been together so much longer than that, and he is making me so happy. I still don't get to see him as much as I would like with school and all my other stuff, but that will change very soon! His family and his kids are great too, and I miss them terribly. I can see good things to come from this relationship, and it actually gives me hope in the male species...lol!
I know I can make it through these next few weeks, and I see only good things in the future. Being able to actually spend time with my family, friends, and boyfriend will be the best part. Not living in poverty is just an added bonus. I know that Social Workers don't make much money...but ANYTHING is better than the $10,000/year I make now!
BRING IT ON!!!
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